I WONDER - The very first song I've ever written

I wonder

Will I find a place for me

I wonder

If it’s where I’m meant to be

I want to

Know more before I change

You ask me

If I’d leave your love behind

Believing

That I’d never be the same

So watch me

While I live another life

Without all

Your lies to hold me back

Much stronger

Off your strings, I can’t compare

How I feel way brand new

Without love I will feel hope

I’ll go now, so watch me

Destroy our memories

I wonder

Will my life then be complete

Right after

I prove you don’t own me

Though that was

Your beliefs and all your prayers

Your hope now

Has destroyed you beyond repair

I’ll never

Say your name out loud again

Whoever

You become after the end

I won’t care for your heart

For mine was all torn apart

Now trust me, you can’t see

All you did was to deceive me

I’ll be strong, I feel young

This fake love will not reach me

I know that you can feel it

So watch me

While I lead another life

Without all your lies to hold me back

Much stronger

Off your strings, I can’t compare

How I feel way brand new

Without love, I will feel hope

I’ll go now

So watch me

Destroy our memories

I wonder

Why I went through all of that

Can I now be my self before we met?

So now what

With a heart left to repair

I’m all alone, all of life’s gone

No matter, I’ll go after

All the dreams you were killing

I know I will forget you

Now I know I am living

I’ll go now

So watch me

Destroy our memories

I’ve always

Meant to tell you all these words

Now I wonder

Will I be just brave enough?

MY ALL ON EARTH

When in your arms

You held me

My heart

It could’ve danced alone

You didn’t know

Where you would go

A cause not of our own

I begged of you

Leave it to me

But you are the one that they want

You’re all have on earth

To talk about love

The only one I call

To dance with my soul

You’re all I have on earth

The only one I trust

Now I have to save you

But they can’t do that much

You’re all I have on earth

And if I lost you

I’m sure that I would die

I am

Then off you were

Bring back the peace

To those hearts without hope

Don’t hesitate

Offer yourself

All the years you still had

You’re beautiful

Like a hero

In your final photo

You’re all I have on earth

To talk about love

The only one I call

To dance with my soul

You’re all I have on earth

Please, come back alive

Forget this filthy war

Alive like every night

You’re all I have on earth

And if I lose you

I know that I will die

I do

You’re all I have on earth

But what have you done

With both your arms

That now they can hold me no more

You’re all I had on earth

To talk about love

There’s no one else to call

To dance with my soul

You’re all I had on earth

And now I lost you

I know that I will die

I do

You’re all I had on earth

My all on earth

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This is actually a loose version of Celine Dion's Que Toi Au Monde.

Rooney Travers

‘One more book about a dysfunctional boy with strange powers who saves the world.’

‘Well, if you don’t like them, why do you keep reading?’

‘I can’t help myself, mom, they just take a hold on me.’

‘Are you taking it or not? ‘Cause if you aren’t we’d better find some replacement fast. If your father reaches us before we reach the cashier there will be no books for you and me both.’

‘Ok, I’ll take this one. But, say I don’t like it much, can we come back later and get a new one?’

And there was the smile that made me feel the world could end and I’d still be safe.

There it was, the very best thing about my mother: her total lack of account towards my father. Once I overheard her talking to our nosy neighbour saying he’s a wonderful husband, but a lousy father. Curiously enough, the very same week I overheard nanna Amber complaining my mother was an okay mother, but a lousy wife to her son. I, on the other hand, learnt early enough to take (maybe I should say make) the best of both my parents.

You see, when my mom’s and my dad’s blood collided they caused an effect that made me the unluckiest guy you’ve ever heard of. I have no one to blame but my father. Or maybe my mother.

About seventeen years ago my father and his best friend ‘accidentally’ invented a machine that would allow him to travel across the multiverse. Don’t think about any kind of big heavy machinery, I’m talking about my dad’s snake necklace. It’s actually very beautiful and at first sight it makes you think it’s nothing but a cheap brass chain, but it glowed like nothing in this planet under the right light. But of course it’d glow like nothing in this planet, we lack the material.

Long story short, it was a real shock to my father to discover that the first planet he’d arrive upon would be crowded with humans just like his own, but he found the best consolation a single stranded man could find: a girl. Yup, that’s my mother I’m talking about, so you’d better show some respect here.

The thing is, according to the laws of the multiverse: travelling between worlds, okay. Walking, breathing, eating in other worlds, okay. Meeting people from other worlds, falling in love with them and marrying them, okay. Having a baby, really not okay.

They say it was a real shock to mum and dad. Once, shortly after they, er… you know… did what married people do, mom started to vanish into dust. Not the effect you want to cause to a girl, huh? Anyway, dad jumped into the multiverse void and started looking for mom. He did find her all right, three hundred years before she was even born. And that was when mom found out she was pregnant and that carrying a baby from anyone from a different world caused you to be unable to hold yourself in your planet. Or any planet. Mom said those were the hardest nine months of her life, her and dad actually lived in the multiverse void, protected by his snake necklace, until I was born and she no longer carried another planet’s blood inside her body.

Do you see how unlucky I am now? I am such a bad and strong paradox that my dad had to create my own snake necklace, which I can’t even dream to take it off. And the worst is, although I’m human like mom, dad and even you, everything I have double is split. I know it’s awesome to need no air adaptation in both planets, but each one of my eyes see a different planet. All the time.

In due time, it was always easy for me to find any one of my parents, no matter in which planet they happen to be and that’s how I settled my decision to buy that book I would certainly forget to read.

‘He’s finished hunting’ I told mom, seeing my father through my right eye. ‘He’ll now just pack up and take dinner home before he comes pick us up. Let’s hurry.’

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INSANITY

Somebody talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

So baby, talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

You say there’s no other way

That he’ll be drifting away

But if you look in my eyes

You’ll see a tone of surprise

I know just what to do

But if you don’t show me how

My whole dream is no good

My life will be broken down

And that’s what friends are here for

To surf us back to a safer shore

Open again the painkiller door

(Make sure they don’t hurt us any more)

I thank for their patience with me

I know you’re not what they wanna hear

They say I’ll have just to be me

(Or am I really just a flea)

Please someone talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

So baby, talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

Time will slowly pass by

My days feel like weeks

Weird though that I never cry

My voice sounds like a squeak

I know that there is no use

My brain has stopped all the work

My eyes are hiding the colors

My heart is getting abused

Can you now talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

So baby, talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

I now felt left here behind

Deprived from wherever that I could go

Astonished that they were so blind

So blind, so blind as if they don’t know

Along one day of recovery

They will be standing next to me

And we will laugh at these memories

One day, one day they will make it go

Talk to me, talk to me

Talk to me, talk to me

Talk to me, talk to me

Can anyone right here please

Talk to me, talk to me

Talk to me, talk to me baby

Talk to me, talk to me yeah

Talk to me, talk to me now

Somebody talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

So baby, talk to me, talk to me

Take me on a dream of fantasy

Don’t take that smile as a freak

Show me the quickest way to be free

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Bubblegum Pop Music

TURN MY LOVE AROUND - Song

Turn my love around

Don’t make another sound

‘Cause we know where this will lead, baby

Now make another vow

And take it to the ground

I’ll see your face in my sleep, baby

I am here where this road ends

I don’t see how this can make it mend

All the tears I refused to cry

Drown my soul, slowly they make me die

I still see your face in my dreams

Don’t you know how much you are to me?

Be careful with the words you say

Save your last before it goes away

I see you coming over

Saying that you’ll go for

The piece of my heart you lost

You say it’s not my fault

That you’re the one to blame but

A fled piece hid in a new vault

I still see your face in my dreams

Don’t you know how much you are to me?

Be careful with the words you say

Save your last before it goes away

Hold my love inside your bare hands

Save myself in you ‘cuz here you’re mended

Don’t you worry about all these scars

They were here before you became my star

Turn my love around

Don’t make another sound

‘Cause we know where this will lead, baby

Now make another vow

And take it to the ground

I’ll see your face in my sleep, baby

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I wrote this in December 2012. I have no memory of this time and I had no idea I had written this,